I keep forgetting, really, but I really should do that. I’m also putting off calling Wonder Con about my tickets. I’m putting off making friends, too, because the ones I have at times make me feel antisocial. I need to be more okay with throwing my work away, with sharing mediocre creations to better myself, to take criticism.
You could say I’m putting off starting projects, out of impatience, and fear of failure. I’m in a stage now where I need to rest and enjoy the empty time, and I can feel the era ending and my restless inspiration kicking in.
It is a scary feeling at first, but then wonderful, and then the time is up already and it’s time to move on. I have weekends now, that harbor a few hours that I had never had empty.
#Chronories free
And it’s not like I have a TON of free time. I wish I had more things to do, sort of, but then again I’ve been wishing for this free time for months and years. To be honest, I’m happy with where I am right now perfect. I’m doing this questionnaire because I thought it would help me with something. Just emotional damage, having to deal with them all the time. I live with my parents so it’s not like rent is a huge deal. I’m well qualified to do what I do, and if I can’t find that then I can work things out freelance, or doing another minimum wage type job, like hostessing or something. If I were fired from both jobs? Get right back on the job market. If you were fired from your job today, what would you do to get things under financial control? Foolish people have achieved better before, through charisma and dumb luck. West Coast Swing is a great community to have a family right away, (though how good am I at that <– wrong section!) and I’d be following my dream(?). I would be meeting new people, and there are a lot of people out there. I would be living on my own, which would probably feel wonderful. What are the outcomes or benefits, both temporary and permanent, of more probable scenarios? I’d probably try and work somewhere else, leave and never come back. I would freak out in the back of my brain as I present some deadpan face to the world. What steps could you take to repair the damage or get things back on the upswing, even if temporarily? It would feel super terrible, but at least I’m not dying, or something?Ģ. This feels to me like maybe a 7/10, I guess. What if I hate the place, even though I thought I might love it there? What if I end up making dreadful friends, as I often do when I visit a new place? What if I lose the internship completely, quickly, and/or fail to make enough money to meet my rent, food, social needs? How will I find new friends? What if I fail everyone and everything? I would get out of touch with most of my friends in San Diego (not that I’m doing a good job right now) and possibly have trouble making new ones in the new city. I imagine something like taking on an internship at Poketo, for example, and packing my bags and moving to LA. Being in a new place with the possibility of unemployment, poverty, failure, loneliness. Define your nightmare, the absolute worst that could happen if you did what you are considering.
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